Dear blog

I am feeling a bit down today, can't think of a particular reason. It's one of those days where you wake up and just realise all the parts of your life that you have failed (or think you have, it's a matter of perspective I believe).
I often get disappointed with myself for my life not turning out the way it should. I am 23 with 2 kids, I hadn't planned to have kids so young, I wanted to get educated, have a career, remain un-fat, get married, the usual. Anyway I might be having a downer patch but luckily for me I am not the type who gets down and then sabotages, I am the kind who gets down and then gets over it lol so no comfort eating for me, it would only make me feel worse.
Besides I think in times like this we need to look at the path we have taken and think, would I really change any of it? I don't think so. Everything happens for a reason. I love my kids and their dad, our son was even created on purpose lol. I have finished one year of uni so I am 1/3 of the way to having that career that I want and I am about 3 kg down from where I was 3 weeks ago so I should be thankful for that.
In regards to eating and exercise, I still haven't messed up the tracking, I don't plan to because even though I don't self sabotage, I am definitely an all or nothing girl and I know that once I so stuff up I will have broken the seal so to speak. Also the more I put off exercising the less likely I am to do it which is why I am trying to be as consistant as possible. I did go swimming last night but only did 1km, I wanted to do a bit more but there was a horrible hornet that seemed to be stalking me and I almost drowned on a couple of occasions trying to avoid contact with the damn thing.
Anyway my dear blog, I will post again tomorrow after my weigh in. I think I will end up writing more about my feelings than about my weight, but that makes sense, weight is just a number there can't be that much to say about it.

CFN!!